|Monday, October 10th, 2005|
this is a letter to the piece of shit that dismantled my bike this weekend.
it probably would be in your best interest to leave tucson. if i happen to run across you, you will be hospitalized. i no longer dabble in pacifism. i WILL kill you. thank you for taking my transportation apart so that you can sell the parts for a 20 dollar rock. i hope it was worth it. if i ever see you again i WILL kill you, end of fucking story.
if anyone has a bike they would like to lend me, it would be greatly appreciated. my life is fucked without one.
|Friday, August 26th, 2005|
so this is day 3 of not smoking cigarettes. this could be the worst decision i have ever made. am i back??? wait and see, it might be another 6 months before i post again
|Monday, February 7th, 2005|
so im back, sort of. i was really glad to be off lj but what else am i gonna do?
things are getting better. blues is really doing well, i moved to bass wehn jordan left and the new songs are going in a better direction. way more balls-to-the-wall.
im also playing second guitar in the crowd, the new our cure band. right now its just temporary but if i can make touring schedules alright with work then i might try to do both. im sure at one poing i might have to decide but im not ready for that right now.
im also working 7 days a week which is gnarly but i like not having the time to sit around and be depressed about stupid shit. i dont know, my life is changing for the better. it took the longest fucking time to get on my feet and bad shit is still part of my life but im just tired of being angry. im trying to take a new look on dealing with my problems and ive decided that im sick of bullshit. its no longer a part of my life. if it makes me sad then it wont be part of my life. just about all my problems we're related to the fact that i couldnt manage money in the first place but thats getting better at an exponential rate. fuck im tired.
wed feb 9th
the clarity process (rad fuckin dudes from portland)
not quite bernadette (phoenix punx (not really))
the crowd (woooooo)
blues for the martyrs (beware)
starts at 7 and i think its 5 bucks
come and say hi if you want, its been a while since we've played and i would like to hang out with my old friends
|Thursday, November 4th, 2004|
goddamn im good at fucking one thing up when another goes right. im a walking practical joke on everyone else.
im starting to find that you were right when you called me a creep.
|Monday, October 25th, 2004|
things are good although im broker than ive ever been. starting rough recording tonight just to have something down. playing phoenix again on friday night, if anyone wants to go with us let me know.
|Tuesday, October 19th, 2004|
things have been going well. jordan gave mesome new tires for my car so i didnt have to pay shitloads of money for them. our next three shows are in phoenix, the first of which is on friday. the last of them is with breather resist and ed gein so im startin to get pumped. we have been using our cures space and practicing at least three times a week if not more. been writing alot of shit and we will be recording with orin within the next three weeks.
|Monday, October 11th, 2004|
who wants to buy me christmas presents early? i want 2000 morning glory seeds (heavenly blues) and a giant container of petroleum ether. hah
|Sunday, October 10th, 2004|
im sick and bored as hell. if anyone wants to visit, their presence is welcome.
|Friday, October 8th, 2004|
i fucking hate it when i trust someone and they give me the fucking shaft. im sick of people that dont give a shit about other people.
|Wednesday, September 29th, 2004|
MON OCT 4TH
@ BOARDWALK BASEMENT
england (from la)
blues for the martyrs
go, it should be fun.
like last night was.
went to phoenix and got in the show for free becuase we brought back bleeding kansas' PA head that they left in tucson on thier last tour. they fucking ruled last night. hot cross was fucking amazing as always, they played three songs off of fair trades and fairwell and just as i was bummed that they didnt play anything off a new set of lungs, they suprised me and closed with two songs from that album. carrie even came out, i havent seen her in a really really long time. i think me, rudy and alex creeped jeremy out in the car on the way back cause we couldnt stop lauging about stupid shit.
|Monday, September 27th, 2004|
got everything set so now i can go to thailand. im leaving november 6th and getting back the 13th. im so excited to be going. the price, thats interesting also. in exchange with my flight and hotels and shit, im going to retile the shower in my parents house. heh, sounds like they're getting the short end of the stick.
had the best fucking dinner ever at their house. sapporo beer, grilled veggies and johnny cash
|Wednesday, September 15th, 2004|
so i cant play guitar for more than 5 minutes without the worst pain shooting through my left hand. im starting to get so afraid that i feel frantic. i talked to a doctor about it and he told me to stop playing guitar immediately because its carpal tunnel and hes never seen it get so bad in such a small amount of time. its not like ill ever stop playing becuase some schmuck told me not to but what happens if i dont stop? what will i do if i cant play guitar anymore? everyone tells me ill survive but you cant live without your heart. sometimes ill pick something up and pain shoots through my hand and ill drop it. like today, i dropped a circular saw that was running. if i cant play guitar anymore then suicide is my only option. Current Mood: fucking terrified
|Tuesday, September 14th, 2004|
so i went into calvins mongolian grill and got hired on the spot. soon i will be out of the construction buisiness, im fucking excited about that.
i think i might be going to thailand in november. i really hope that works out.
so i went into calvins mongolian grill today and got hired on the spot. hopefully soon i will be completely free of the construction life and back into normal person mode. nip/tuck and weed tonight to celebrate! oh that and the circle takes the square album that jason gave me.
|Monday, September 13th, 2004|
so i got my pager hooked up, my new number is 540-0091. theres no voice thing so it rings once and then immediately beeps, kinda confusing at first.
also my car is fixed. i can finally drive my own car again.
my mom gave me the punching bag at the house, no one uses it and she figured i had aggresion to take out.
mushrooms will be here in a week.
the job hunt continues.
oh and does anyone have a computer monitor that they would sell to me for CHEAP?
|Monday, September 6th, 2004|
so hero fucking ruled. that movie is great. so are my parents for taking me with them to see it and for buying me a box of donuts and the best fucking bacon wrapped jalapenos. thats it.
|Friday, September 3rd, 2004|
first i want to say thank you. why? becuase of the check that you wrote me. nevermind the fact that i own toilet paper thats more expensive but you could at least put the money in the bank to back that shit up. that way when i only have 40 dollars in the bank and you pay me i can at least pay rent you fucking prick. thanks for nothing you piece of shit.
p.s. if money didnt exist i could run you over like ive always wanted to.
|Thursday, September 2nd, 2004|
tomorrow im applying at csd for a job. im also gonna look into the younger program that dusty's into. if that works out, ill be babysitting retarted children.
went to christas mothers house and went swimming. i dont think im ever wearing underwear again.
ive also done a bit of budgeting and hopefully it works out. i dont have a cell phone right now and we dont have a phone at the house so if you have to get in touch with me, send me an email at firstname.lastname@example.org. i might just hook up jeanelles old pager becuase its somethin like 20 bucks for 6 months but not having a cell phone would drive me crazy. its kind of good not having a cell phone right now becuase i really dont want to talk to anyone for a long time but i still feel naked without it.
|Tuesday, August 31st, 2004|
so my cell phone is broken and sprint decided to fuck me. if i want a new phone i have to drop at least 150 bucks even if i start a new plan (i cant even afford the phone if i get it for 20 bucks). i cant catch a fucking break. not one.
i seriously wish the second i pull out onto broadway from leaving my house one day a car will total mine. i wish this because if i dont die (which would be an upgrade in my current state) ill get a huge settlement.
ive also decided that fall of next year, im moving to new york city with jordan. fuck tucson. fuck the people that thing my friendship to them is a joke. fuck this city for ruining my life. fuck me for ruining my life. fuck my boss for fucking me. i guess what im trying to say is fuck everything.
|Wednesday, August 25th, 2004|
so i shaved my head again only i forgot how long i had been in the sun today so now i have a gnarly tanline where my hair once was. guess its not that important but i look waaaaaaay white trash.
new needle on my record player tonight which means all i do when i get home is blast records with my roomates being gone and all.
i really wanted to go for a bike ride today but the fact that i was outside painting for 10 hours makes me not want to do anything physical.